May 25, 2011
Ugh…

Sick of all this crap. Can’t help but still have some small feelings for my ex who left me twice for someone else and then came back to use me. Then the only other person I even like and could picture myself with is dating a guy I can’t stand and would give anything to never ever see again in my life. Is it my personality that just makes girls think I am not the relationship type of guy? I have had a few girls ask if I was gay, but that was usually after I turned them down for random one night stands, because I’m not like that. What doesn’t make dollars to me, is that an amazing girl will just throw everything away for a douchey, idiot guy who will do nothingb ut hurt her in the end. I know, most guys tend to be stupid and just keep going back to the slutty cheater girlfriend too. Oh well, guess I’ll just keep on doing what I’m doing in life. Living it day by day for myself and no one else. It usually is a great lifestyle, but sometimes it feels good to live for someone else. Sigh…